Yet another time

I want to write this down so that I will not forget.

After the episode in July, it happened again in late October/early November. I had another early miscarriage.

This time I went into the midwife on the 3rd day of flow only because it was the weekend before and I didn't really pay attention to my discharge. Ended up my discharge was full of big tissues. Aiya. Anyhow, I was given a good talking to by the midwife but still refused a blood test. Its happened and gone already, what's the use. I persisted. So the midwife did an ultrascan to confirm and then decided that she was going to actively monitor my situation.

This time around my body needed rest. Unlike the episode before, I was not able to just pick myself up and move on. My body yelled for rest to recuperate. I was pale as a ghost but given that I have one preschooler who really needs attention, it was not easy to "put it all aside", if you know what I mean. I knew I needed to be there for my child and her presence is very healing to me as well. So I snatched naps as much as I could, often sleeping so deeply that my nanny said it looked like I was comatosed. A friend told me that its as if my body is claiming from me on what I owed it for sleep. Sleep bank - I think is the term she used.

I took about 10 days of rest this round but really only recovered after the 1 month timeframe.
Amazing how the old-wives-tales of 1 month confinement holds true. I also got a long bout of flu that lasted about the same time as the start of the episode and only ended about 6 to 7 weeks later.

It was emotionally very trying again, more so this time as Himself was travelling away for work.
But as my midwife had decided to actively monitor me, I did feel better. At least we were going to get some active help.