Letting go

What can you say when God tells you to wait a little more?

I say Yes Lord. I will continue to be patient.

We came a little closer to having an addition to our family though God decided that He wanted to make sure the addition will be more perfect than we can ever imagine and so asked that we wait a while more. Despite being awfully challenged, we rationally gave it over to Him and ask that He bless us in His good time. Kind of like when Abraham was asked to give his son to God and had to trust God that He knew best.

The decision to start the beginning of an end is extremely tough but we knew that it was the rational choice and the right decision for us given the factors that we had to consider, and so we made the decision to let go yesterday.

I am thankful that we have had family & friends who have been able to stand by us through it all with loads of support given in terms of prayers, kind words and thoughts and many other tiny gestures. Also very thankful for the medical people who have been kind, compassionate and total angels throughout this entire situation.

My immediate concerns are my work, my family and my health - in that order.

Very irrational. I know.

I know I need to work through the gamit of emotions and pray for healing both physically and emotionally. Praying that I come to some happy medium while we enter a period of rest, recuperation and fresh starts.